It's been awhile since I last updated this blog...I guess its true what people say...eventually it gets boring...but yet, this place still remains my sanctuary to let out what I feel inside etc etc...

Well....since its almost the end of the year 2009...I might as well just make a summary of my life this year....

Earlier of the year....it was the adrenaline burst of the end of SPM...during that time, the only thought in my mind was to just go out and have fun with friends and family...and then, there was the joy of obtaining my SPM results a couple of months later...although I didn't get as good results as my sister, it was a great relief as it was already over and it wasnt that bad...haha...

Middle of the year...plenty of ups and downs....scholarship interviews...applied a bucket-full of scholarships but only managed to get 2 interviews but I was still grateful for being able to get just even one despite of...well, u know the rest...anyhow...the amount of pressure faced during both interviews were intense...the number of people there who are most definitely better than me...and then there was the downfall of my relationship...most of you definitely know bout the story...cant blame her though...in the end, I was still the asshole for not being able to be perfect...she could get a much better prince rather than a miserable peasant...so I might as well let her go....finally...it was the gap building between me and my old frens as most of them have started with their own life and new frens...like who would remember me rite...? Haha... Thats all for the bad news so far....there is still a light within those darkness...I achieved victory as I scored myself the Petronas Scholarship to study overseas. I havent had a smile like that for months...

Even more good news, I eventually started with my own life as well. In Kolej Tuanku Ja'afar. Hard to believe right? A peasant like me studying in an elite school? Haha. Moving on, I made new wonderful frens there. All of them are awesome in their very own way and I'm still grateful today for having able to meet wonderful peoples along the way. Life was goin splendid.

And yet...there was still a shroud of darkness closing in...met with an accident which let me traumatized for a period of time...the leaving of my wonderful House Parents, Mr & Mrs Hitchman...and I've only started my life in KTJ for bout 3 months...I really wished they could stay longer...but yea...they've got to go on with their life... There are several other disappointments as well but I wouldnt want to talk much bout them as there of no significance now....

So in conclusion, that is the summary of my year 2009...there are many more things to say but are unable to be expressed as words...as this year comes to an end, I look forward to an even better future than this year and especially this year...hopefully...

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Could someone tell me why....

Why am I feeling like this...

Did anything happen today...

Did I see anything today...

Did I hear anything today...

None that I heard of though...

It came all of a sudden...

Came without a warning...

Came without a reason...

Does it mean anything...

Or is it just another phase to life...

So many questions...

So little knowledge...

Is feeling down the only way...

To express what Im feeling now...

Is it just another bad habit...

Could someone give me an answer...

Before I fall into the darkest abyss...

I couldn't fly to Heaven anymore so I broke my wings and die without regrets ...
~Memoirs of A Fallen Angel~

Aiyoyo.... -.-

*sigh* why does it have to be such a short break? 4 days went by in like just a minute. Lately been getting kinda exhausted and not enough rest...so tired of studies that last sunday went to midvalley(if you've been viewing or stalking my facebook then you should know from all the pics that my frens uploaded and tagged) wit the 'gather gather' gang (tracia so loves to use this word. LOL) instead of just sitting in my room doing prep or what not. That trip seriously meant A LOT! The amount of stress relieved during that day was intense! I've never felt so free since I started KTJ...not that I hate KTJ...i love you KTJ for all the people and fun activities...BUT not the prep that the teachers give!! ==

So okay back to my misery... -.- 4 days is just too short of a break SERIOUSLY! And with all the deepavali prep..its barely even a BREAK! Just once, how i wish that time would just stop...

Aite then...tonight is the last night in kl again...goin back to 'the prison' again tomorrow after lunch...im seriously gonna pray that next week onwards will be a better start for me. And not forgetting to pray for my grandma as well as she will be undergoing an operation for her spine on monday.

GOD PLEASE BLESS MY GRANDMA TO HAVE A SAFE OPERATION AND THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT...

So goodnight then. Peace out~
And before i forget...

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO INDIANS EVERYWHERE